New Year

It's 2014.
How the hell is it 2014?
Well I don't know where the last year has gone, but obviously there's no getting it back. So we forge ahead.
In 2013 I set myself a few resolutions, and unlike the 81 percent of people who make them, mine seemed to go fairly well. I had 5.
1.Be Bold
2.Grow in who you are
3.Document Your life
4.Watch good movies. Read good books. Listen to good books.
5.Be you.
Now looking back these do seem rather vague. But let me explain....

One, be bold. I'm the sort of person who needs to plunge right in or not go at all. None of these dipping your toes in the water crap. If I do things like that I never get them done. So my goal to be bold, was more a goal to go for things. To fear less, and do more. And I did. I started a youtube channel (which now had over 400 subscribers), I auditioned for my schools elite showchoir, and got in, I asked my close friend if she'd be interested in moving to California with me for a month this coming summer. And finally, I quit doing things I didn't like. Things that didn't move me, or excite me. I made the dedication that I was going to do things for ME.

Two, grow in who you are. Now this resembles a Nicholas Sparks novel, or the self help section of a Barnes and nobles, but bare with me. I know a lot more about myself that I did previously. I don't mean little things, like a new favorite color, or a favorite class. I mean that I really have begun to understand what I want, what I like, and what I love. I think that its easy to get lost in the daily life. Get up, go to school, come home, do homework, watch TV, mindlessly scroll through social media. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the 2 latter, but I also realized that I knew very little about myself. I knew when things made me mad, or sad, or bored. But I didn't really understand why. I've begun to, and with that I've found a lot more happiness in the slow bits of every day. It's wonderful.

Three, document your life. I won't go into this one too much. I have hundreds and hundreds of video clips and photos to prove this was a success. Plus a draw full of tickets, and movie tickets. Plus a journal. I'm happy with it.

Four, watch good art. I'm not sure how to sum this up quickly. I'll try. Downton Abbey, Fault In Our Stars, plus a million movies. I really tried hard to take in good art in 2013, not just mind-wasting content that the media shoves at us.

Five, be you.
I can't say much on this point. I think that its still a very big part of how I'm trying to live my life now, compared to the past. Being yourself. I actually kind of hate the term. It's inspiration speaker crap. But in all honestly its not easy. Its hard. But I guess I've found it to be well worth the struggle in situations where I've held my ground, and stuck to "me". I don't know. This may just be a load of BS on my part.

And now for the tricky part.
2013 was kickass.
Honestly.
And now 2014 has large shoes to fill.
So what do I want out of the coming year? Do I have goals? Long term, short term? Resolutions?
Yes.No.Kind of. Maybe?

Look, I want 2014 to be better than 2013. I do. And I have a few "resolutions" if thats what we're going to call them. So stick with me? I swear I'm almost done.

1.Take opportunities. (Don't make excuses. Get comfortable with feeling uncomfortable.)
2.Make more art. (It's doesn't have to be good art, in fact it probably won't be. Make it anyways.)
3.Continue to take in good art. (Work harder at this. Theater is a place to start. Blogs next. Go)
4.Push your comfort zones. (No good shit happens inside that dumb box everyone keeps talking about)
5.Be passionate. Be excited.

I guess that's it. I know that no one's really out there. But putting this up, writing all this down. It feels good.

-E